Saturday, August 29, 2009

Bad Day

I don't have the energy to post in my normal, story format, so here's just a quick update on my super-shitty day:

1.) the only good thing about today: the fast went well, no slip ups, no hunger, no temptations

2.) i wrecked the car... and now my parents are plotting out the best way to kill me for it

3.) i think my boyfriend's mad at me because i asked him if he'd be mad if i cut. i didn't cut because he told me not to, but i hope i didn't upset him by asking... i just really really wanted to cut, you know?

4.) i have a ton of your blogs to read and comment; feeling like such a bad person for posting before reading but i just don't know if i'll even be able to find the energy to read them all tonight. i will try though

5.) killer headache: prolly from not eating and stressing and crying a lot

Wow. I hate my life right now.... Hope everyone is doing better than me.


  1. 1. Awh, well that's good at least!
    2. Oh no. : ( I promise your parents will cool down after a while, and you guys will be able to figure out how to deal with the car.
    3. He'll understand. Or rather, he'll HAVE to understand that it's a problem that you have and that he has to accept it, whether it turns out the way he wants it to or not.
    4. It's ok! Sometimes I post before reading if I'm not sure I'll have time, either.
    5. Just try and calm down, because that's probably what it's from. Lie down, listen to some music and let yourself forget about everything for a little while.

    Life will get better! And I'm not doing better than you at all. : ( At least we both had someone to share a bad day with. Feel better dearie!

  2. Darling I'm so sorry you had such a crappy day. I love reading your blog, you give such a different spin on everything. I would love to have you as a texting buddy. I'm not really sure how it all works but we can just wing it. Email me at and I'll give you my phone number.


  3. *hugs*
    I'm glad that u r past the hunger & temptations. What happened to the car? Pleeeeeeeeeeeease don't cut, love...its very dangerous.
    I hope ur head feels better...
    <3 Pi

  4. oh hun don't be to hard on yourself. I hope you didn't get hurt with your car! Its probably best that you didn't cut. Good job on your fast

  5. honey I totally get how you feel. This is like exactly what goes on in my life. Like exactly. Exept the car thing. (tough break)
    just know that there are people out there that know what you nare going through,

    stay beautiful

  6. My boyfriend gets like that when I cut.
    It kinda annoys me because I'm not doing it to hurt him.

    If you need to cut, you should talk to him seriously about it. Sometimes cutting is the only way to make me feel better and my boyfriend understands that.

    Hope you're ok :)
    Love lots xox

  7. That sucks. I'm glad you're ok. Please don't cut!

  8. I'm so sorry to hear that you had such an awful day.


    Stay Strong.
    Things will get better.

  9. "The deeper you cut, the deeper it hurts. The deeper you cut, it only gets worse."

  10. Oh my god! I'm sorry about the car! It's great to see you're okay!