I shuddered and pushed the glass of salt water away from myself. "Ugh, it's disgusting."
Ana shoved it right back at me. "I don't care. You need it; you've got to clear your body out. You're full of all this shit you've been eating. You need to get rid of it, one way or another."
"Can't i just fast?"
"Well you could," she replied mockingly, "but you won't; you don't have the resolve and you won't lie to your beloved Shaun." Was that a hint of jealousy in her voice? Whatever it was, she was right. I closed my eyes and chugged down the disgusting water. "One more glass," she said, filling it up again.
I shook my head. "No, Ana, i can't."
She held it to my mouth. "You Can!"
I took a few swallows and pushed it away. If it had been making me sick to my stomach, i would have gladly obliged; if it had been doing anything destructive at all, it would have been all right, but all it was doing was tasting horrid. "I've gotta stop. Surely half will have some kind of result."
Ana snorted. "You'd better pray so, you weak, pathetic thing."
Two hours passed, then three, then six. Nothing happened. Ana screamed at me that if i'd been strong enough to drink all the water i would have been just fine. My joints screamed at me that they ached from all the salt. My stomach screamed at me that all that salt was making it retain water and bloat like a horrid, fleshy balloon. My eyes screamed at me to just let them cry.
"Tomorrow," Ana commanded, "You're starting ABC with a minimum of 30 minutes of exercise every day."
I didn't argue. My mind did race to Shaun though. What would he say?
"Don't worry about it," Ana said. "Just tell him the truth when he asks what you ate and how much exercise you did. He's not gonna tally up the Calorie count in his head. You'll be just fine."
I nodded. I needed this.
This was the Perfect description of struggling with salt water. I could relate to almost every single word! Please continue writing beautifully, I LOVE reading your POSTS!
ReplyDeletei've never relly tried it, but some people really swear by it. dont worry yourself hun, you will do good on the abc, i remember how well you did last time.
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xxx much love .jen.
You have a beautiful writing style, and I'm really interested in your story and reading more about you. I started following your blog. I know you've been looking at my blog too. Are you ok? You haven't posted since the salt water. I hope you're doing ok.
ReplyDeleteive never tried the salt water flush but now i dont want to lol. try cranberry juice. i drank a jug of it once in one day and the next day i was 4lbs lighter. Way better than laxxies lol
ReplyDeleteHi :)
ReplyDeletejust wanted to let you know i have been reading your blog for awhile now and finally got the guts to make my own and to comment..
anyways i just wanted to let you know i really love your writing style especially the story form blogs.
Beth
Hi Ana,
ReplyDeleteYes, I can relate to that description too. I just finished my 3rd day of the master cleanse and have completed 2 salt water cleanses in the last 48hour (which I have never done before)...trying to keep it down was a challenge. I do feel lighter after the last three days but not a bloody thing to show for it on the scales :-( Think I'll have that bottle of wine tonight and start again tomorrow!
Em
Dude, chugging all this salt is so weird. It's insane. I've never tried this before. one thing I know salt water cleanse worked, it went straight through and washed a lot of dirty stuff out
ReplyDeleteHow much do u drink? How many glasses? I'm new to this and I've tried a lot of things to make me puke and my stomach just doesn't let things go. I've only piled 2ce before in my life and it was at least 3 yrs ago.
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