Ugh. As usual, i failed ABC before i even started it. Yesterday was good up until about 8:30, when i was watching a movie at a friends house with Shaun and two other people, and Cassie got out the chips and salsa. Of course everyone insisted that i eat some, so it wasn't really my choice, but at the same time it WAS my choice, and it WAS my failure. I'd had exactly 500 Calories prior to that, so it took me over the first limit for ABC. FAILED BEFORE I EVEN STARTED!
SO since i failed, i decided to come home and binge. At least it wasn't all shit food. Actually, the only junk i had all day was the chips and salsa and ONE cookie. Go me, i managed to stop at one. (Trying to be positive here...) I'm sure i stayed under 1500 Cals for the day, but still... Ew.
Waking up this morning, i find out that i have my stupid, fat period. Talk about adding insult to injury. I fail and fail and fail, and my body decides to agree with my brain and tell me i'm friggin fat. I'm bloated from that and last nights binge, so i'm just fat in general with massive cramps on top of it. Gotta love being a woman.
On a more happy note: Shaun is absolutely amazing and i LOVE LOVE LOVE him, even if he and Ana don't get along. He also hasn't been monitoring my eating as strictly. He doesn't ask for a Calorie count or inventory of what i ate at the end of the day every day, so that's good. I think maybe my extended failure might have been good for getting him off my back so much... I do feel kinda bad being deceptive about my eating habits with him like this, but you know... Gotta do what you gotta do.
I think i'm going to keep my food journal on here from now on, so at the end of my posts, which i'll start doing in the evenings, i'll add my day's food intake. Good plan?
AND i apologize, i haven't been reading or commenting or even posting as often as i should. How can i be more busy now that the holidays are over than i was when they were in full blast? But somehow it seems to be that way. I'm going to go catch up on all your lovely blogs now, and try my best to stay caught up. Stay strong, my dears!