"I just don't have the motivation to do anything today," i whispered in horror.
Ana rolled her eyes. "Then find it; you're pathetic. It's 10 o'clock in the morning and you've already binged. What the hell is wrong with you?"
"That's all i'll eat all day," i promised vainly. I knew i'd probably fail and inhale more than the 550 Calories i'd had for breakfast-binge.
That made me angry. "I mean it!"
"No you don't. You know you'll end up failing."
So what if i did? She hadn't any right to say things like that to me. "I'm going to do it."
She tossed her head. "I'll believe it when i see it."
"Why don't you just shut up?"
She raised her eyebrows and looked at me in shock. "Well, well, well, someone's in a bad mood this morning."
"Fuck you," i muttered.
Her face crumpled into a mask of hurt. "What is your problem?"
"I don't even know," i answered. But i did know. I had no idea what to do. Matt wanted me back. I wanted him back too, but i wanted Brandon too and i didn't want to hurt him. I couldn't help but think it'd be much easier if i just disappeared from both of their lives.
"Jo," Ana whispered gently, putting her arms around me. "Please don't take it out on me. Just listen to me for once and you'll be happy, no matter who wants you or doesn't want you."
I shook my head. "But what do i do?"
"You have to figure that out yourself. The only advice i can give you is to exercise and starve."