This is a picture of me: how fat i've gotten, how much i've let myself go, how much i need to stop eating, and how much i truly hate myself.
What's wrong with me? Where has my control gone to? I've been doing horribly for almost a month now. I say i'll get back to Ana and then i don't! There's something wrong with me. I'm not recovering because i'm far from happy with the way i look, and i binge a lot of the time. (It's like there's no in between--it's either extreme restriction or binging.) I just want to get back to Ana. Really, i do. How can i? I need help. Someone smack me; tell me i'm fat, lazy, and good-for-nothing. Tell me i HAVE to stop eating, and i HAVE to get thin. Help me. I must get motivated somehow... I just don't know how. Can anyone help me at all? Please, i'm begging you.