My thighs rubbed together at the very top, something i noticed more now that it was summer and i was hot and sticky with sweat. I lifted up my dress to glare down at the fat, white, round things that had the nerve to still be so big, as if glaring at them would shrink them into submission. It didn't. Tears welled in my eyes as i looked at the subtle stretch marks on the inside of my upper legs, the result of a lack of control. "So fat..." i murmured in self-pity.
"Well you wouldn't be if you'd just obeyed me from the very beginning. It won't all just disappear because you finally obey me for one day," Ana told me. "Now stop your sulking. You have a work-out to get through."
"I didn't know you were there, listening to me," i told her with a sigh.
"I'm always listening to you; i'm always right here with you."
I nodded. How stupid i was to have forgotten. "I'm going to obey you tomorrow too, you know?" i said in an attempt to please her.
An attempt that failed miserably. "You'd better! And you'd better do the same the day after, and the day after, and the day after for the rest of your life." She paused and sneered at me. "Otherwise, you'll be fat, fat, FAT forever."
I didn't like how cruel Ana was being. I took it upon myself to say so. "I liked it much better when we were getting along," i stated simply.
She laughed bitterly. "Believe me, sweetie, so did i... But it seems this is the only way you'll learn that you can't rebel against me, that you can't lose me."
I'd best start behaving again; no cause to make her more angry with me than she already was. I wiped the foolish tears from my cheeks and got ready for my evening work-out.