First off, i just wanna say thank you to everyone who left me lovely comments. I love you all so much, and i know you all love me, and that's all that matters, right?!
Shaun update: apparently i'm unattractive. He blocked my number but then talked to me online (confusing, right?) and told me that he just didn't feel attracted to me anymore. So i was like, "well, hello, YOU'RE the reason i gained the weight i'm still working at losing!" Ok, i didn't actually say that, but i really really wanted to. But you know something? I don't give a fuck anymore. It's fine--and i'm not just saying that anymore; it really is fine. If he wants to just drop me like that, then he can. I'll find someone better (and i think i have, but more on that in a minute). He said he tried to make himself like me, but just couldn't... Ugh. Am i really that repulsive? I mean, i know i disgust myself and Ana, but i've just never heard it from someone else's mouth. It kinda hurt, but i'm over it. I'm going to make myself beautiful in my own eyes and in Ana's eyes and then it'll all be alright.
Now, onto the someone better part. I know, i know, "it's so soon; you're such a whore; you just think you need a boy to make you happy." Whatever, shut up, Anonymous commenters. I do realize that it's very soon, but i'm not a whore. You have to understand that this guy would never push me to do anything i'm not ready to do, and sex is the farthest thing from my mind now. I don't think i need a boy to make me happy at all; this one just happened to be there to make me happy. He's always been there for me, and we've always been best friends. You remember the "Jacob" i talked about in previous posts? Yep, it's him. We're so much alike, and we're both hopeless romantics. I've seen how he was with his ex (who i might add dumped him without the courtesy to tell him she was doing so because she wanted to date other people), and he loves exactly the way i do: without holding back. It's beautiful. We talked on Friday, and again on Saturday and he told me that i'm "the only blonde to ever steal his heart". I feel unique. Lol. He's also the one who taught me the "i don't give a fuck" attitude, which rocks my socks. We're not together yet, but he told me he's just gonna wait for me to be ready. This should work. I'm not even worried about it not working. :)
Have a lovely day, ladies (and gents if any are reading). Stay strong, and don't worry, something better is just around the corner.