The floor rushed at me like a million charging rhinos, and my hand reached out for the wall to steady myself. I shook my head and blinked the black out of my eyes. "Woah," i whispered.
"Jo? Are you all right?" my mom asked from her seat on the couch a few feet away from me.
"Uh oh," Ana said.
I nodded. "Yeah, i'm fine, Mom. The wall just jumped out in front of me. It tends to do that in the mornings when i'm not awake."
She laughed, and i continued back to my room. "That was amazing," i said to Ana. "I've never been so close to passing out."
"You're getting stronger in your weakness," Ana told me with a giggle.
I knew i shouldn't like the sensation of nearly falling over; i knew that the shakiness couldn't be good for me. Yet, it was all so new and amazing. I'd never done so well for so long, and it felt wonderful. Ana's praise and good mood certainly helped as well.... Shaun didn't know, of course. He'd be awfully upset if he did, but that was ok. Some secrets are better kept secret.
"I'm all secrets," Ana had warned me when we'd first met. "I'll make you tell lies and hide things from the ones you love."
"But you'll make me thin?"
"Of course, sweetie. I can make anyone thin."
But so far, she'd only kept the first part of her promise: the secrecy part.
"Those are dark thoughts in your head, sweetie," Ana muttered. "You don't think i'm not going to keep the second part of my promise, do you?"
"No, no," i replied. "I know you will."
She nodded. "You're on your way, dearest."
And i knew i was.
Here's my food log for the past few days of ABC, because you all were so happy with my news that i was on day 3 of it, and i love making ya'll happy :)
Day 1 - salad(110), turkey wrap x 2(200) =310
Day 2 - cereal(220), tangerine(40), chicken(100) =360
Sunday = cheat day
Day 3 - oatmeal(75), yogurt(100) =175
And the best part is, i've been UNDER the limit all three days!