Thursday, November 5, 2009

Watch Me.

"Yesterday taught me something," i told Ana. "Being full is the worst feeling ever, and hunger is the best."
She shook her head. "I could have taught you that without the Calories and the binging if you would have just listened to me, but no, you wouldn't want to do that, would you? Now your back at square one; restarting the ABC, pretending you'll actually be able to finish it."
"I might be able to," i defended myself. "I could be the first person ever to finish it."
She burst into bitter laughter. I looked at my feet as she tried to regain her composure. "Jo, you're hilarious," she gasped. "You talk like you have the control to finish ABC when you can't even get past the first two days. You crack me up."
"Shut up, Ana," i muttered. "I'm serious. And it's not that funny."
She didn't shut up. "Yes it is," she insisted, wiping tears of laughter from her eyes.
"Fuck you," i said softly. "I'll prove it to you."
"Fine. You do that." A fire leaped into her eyes.
"I will. Watch me," and i dumped my oatmeal into the trash can.


  1. pah. You'll show her. Stay strong!

  2. the first three days are the hardest in my opinion, but once you get past those your body will get used to the schedule. i know you can do it , just stay busy.
    stay strong


  3. Hey hun :)
    Thanks for your comment, it really helped.
    And you CAN do it!
    I know you can ^-^

  4. i know u can do this. ur control is abbsolutly amazing. dont let binges get u down

  5. you show ana who's boss...your stronger than she is. prove her wrong. ;D

  6. You can do it!
    I'm at day four now.. first day was the worst. But I'm getting a grip, I'm in control.
    We can do it, we're gonna finish the ABC ;)
    Stay strong!
    x Lisa

    cause you're strong and awesome like that. and pretty too. so you deserve good stuff :)
    hugglehugglehuggle ♥

  8. I love your blog, and I am now following it. And your post from 10-16 when you said “"Once you're that skinny, nothing can stop you. You can do anything; know everything; be anyone."
    It sounded absurd... Who would believe that skinniness could enable you to conquer the world, so to speak? But i did. I believed it with all my heart, soul, and spirit. And i needed to be skinny, disgustingly, bone-bareingly skinny.” Is basically the exact thought I have all the time. Skinnyness=total world domination, I really truly think that and feel that. & we are the same height and have the same goals. Stay strong <3 Noelle

  9. Hey. . .
    I've given up trying to deny her. I want to start the ABC soon? Want to start together? Let me knw, my addie is :
    hope to hear from you. . . If not, will wait for updates.
    Love, my girl

  10. Look at how many poeple believe in you, isn't that a motivatior? I know you can do it, and you yourself know it! :)
    So it's two days since your post, how did it go so far? Just stay strong, beautiful :)