Friday, November 13, 2009

Smiles, Sunshine, and Starting Over

Oh, you people amaze me. I love you all soooo much! I can't even begin to thank you for your support. And all of those compliments to both me and Shaun! You all are just too sweet. Love love love!
And now for the part you've been waiting for: the continuation of my story:

"I feel sick," i complained.
"That's what happens when you fucking eat everything you see," Ana answered in that disgusted tone i knew far too well.
I groaned. "I know. I'm so out of control."
"No! You think so?" The sarcasm was evident. "Start ABC over," she commanded.
"But everyone else thinks i should just continue."
"Am i everyone else?"
I just shook my head and looked at the floor.
"You want to be perfect, don't you? How can you expect to be perfect if you ABC isn't perfect?"
"I don't know," i murmured. "I guess i can't."
The sad thing was that i didn't even need to be perfect anymore; i just needed to be closer than i was. I just needed to see some bones. But Ana wanted perfection, and i could not disappoint her.


  1. So are you starting over or continuing? Either way it will help. Plan out your day a little more maybe? Keep exercising too! you'll see those bones soon enough

  2. do you think abc is better than fasting? i feel like every day i eat ANYTHING but water coffee tea soup or yogurt im cheating... what is the advantage of abc versus fasting? love you blog btw! <3

  3. Start over if you have to, never don't start over if you have a chance to!! (If that makes sense....)

    Read over some of your old posts, where you were really determined to fast or finish ABC, and don't think about anything that didn't happen, just think what WILL happen when you're done with ABC!! :)

  4. I'm starting ABC tomorow, we could to it together? It might be easier for us both!

    Stay strong, love your blog so much!


  5. I wish I could be as strong as you. I can't turn down food. It owns me.