Friday, September 18, 2009

This is Prolly a Boring Post... Read it Anyway cuz You Love Me! haha

Well, i'm rather depressed... It's been too long since i've seen my friends and i miss them so much, but i've still got 12 days to go until i'm ungrounded. Of course that lead to a binge... But seriously, who in their right mind binges on buttered toast!? Wtf! I'm an idiot, and i rather hate myself... Trying not to cut because i don't know if 12 days would be enough time for it to heal, and Mat CANNOT find out that i cut because he said he'd leave me if i did... Ugh. I hate my life.

Oh, and the printer ran out of ink, so my thinspo walls are not finished, but when they are, i'll post pictures.

Here's a video to keep you occupied for an hour and 40 minutes, and it'll even turn you off to food. (At least it worked for me.)

I love you girls and guys. Thanks for not giving up on me even though i've been doing so shitty lately. I'll try really really hard to do better. I promise. Hold me to that promise, and if i don't keep it... please just kill me. Better to make a skinny corpse than a fat person.

7 comments:

  1. your doing so much better than me. And girl, your body is hot. honestly. u are doing awesome.

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  2. Me. I've certainly binged on buttered toast. It may or may not have been several hundred times...

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  3. If your boyfriend is saying he'll leave you if you cut; he's not right for you.
    I found that with my ex boyfriend who was like that. If he can't accept who you are, even if you've got a few problems, he really doesn't deserve you.
    At the end of the day, you live your life the way you want and don't get pushed around by men. I've had a string of controlling boyfriends and it's only benefitted me badly.
    Please take my advice and have a serious talk with him. If he can't deal with it, then you should leave him.

    Sorry if that sounds really.. blahh.
    I've just been there.

    ily xox

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  4. AnotherAnaFromNowhereSeptember 19, 2009 at 1:49 AM

    Can you tell the video's name because it doesn't show in my country ("This video is not available in your country due to copyright restrictions.")? :)

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  5. Hey :) think of the next twelve days as a challenge? you want friends when they see you again to say, wow. in a good way. you've been doing awesomely well. many hugs and much love.

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  6. To answer AnotherAnaFromNowhere: the video is called "supersize me." It's about Morgan Spurlock's experiment to eat nothing but McDonalds food for a month.

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