Ok, so this isn't going to be in story form... That's probably a let down since everyone loves how my posts are usually in story form. I do apologize.
Another let down: i organized that whole plan, stuck to it for a day and then failed today, the second day... I'll restart it tomorrow and i'll get through it, but ugh, why can't i do anything right the first time?!
Let down #3. I binged... I swear i ate one (or two in some cases) of everything on the forbidden foods list. It was all emotional eating, which is the worst, most out of control kind of eating there is too. See, my dad decided it'd be great to ground me for an entire month for wrecking the car, even though it wasn't my fault. FML! I responded by eating the entire kitchen. I'm so stupid. How in the world is binging like that going to help anything?! But i did it anyway.
And once again, i'm stressing massively about losing my boy, for no reason at all. I guess i'm just paranoid that with not being able to see him for a month, he'll find someone else... I dunno. He's given me no reason whatsoever to think that; i just have such awful separation anxiety. I'm praying and praying all these unintelligible prayers that consist of "please, God, don't let me lose him," repeated over and over... I need mental help!!!
I'm sorry everyone. I'm sorry i didn't write in an interesting format. I'm sorry i failed my extremely well organized, inspiring plan. I'm sorry i binged. I'm sorry i'm psycho. I'm sorry this post is such a downer... Please forgive me. Please?
Well, i'm fat and ugly and depressed and tired now, so i might go to bed... or i might stay up a bit longer and try to make up for my crappy post by posting some lovely thinspo for you all... We shall see.
Anyways, i truly do love you all; you mean the world to me... Don't leave me, will you? Promise? :(