I got a lot of questions in my comments on my last post, so i figured i'd just devote this post to answering them and giving a few little updates on myself.
Well, i'm sure ya'll remember the last post where i let myself decide whether i would eat or not while Jacob was at work without listening to either him or Ana. I did end up eating something--but it was not a lot and not unhealthy. I ate a bowl of potato soup. And that was that. I'm half proud, half ashamed, but it's alright either way.
And yes, Jacob definitely loves me. The other day and even for a little while this morning, i was being clingy and moody and ridiculous, but he stuck by me and did his very best to make me feel better. I don't know how he puts up with me. Lol. But he does, and he does so very well.
As for which dress i choose for the wedding, it's the one we have to buy. It's just so beautiful and i've wanted it so much since i first laid eyes on it. Perhaps it's just me being selfish... but i want it too much not to get it. Besides, it's not like it's super expensive anyway. Jacob's outfit is more expensive than mine, so i don't feel bad at all.
The wedding, Jacob tells me, should be by the end of next month. We'll both be working by then, so it should be no problem to get the bills paid and get our outfits... I'm not positive we'll be able to do it that soon though. I mean, our outfits put together are going to cost a good chunk of change. I'm guessing the middle of the month after that, but maybe that's just my pessimism, and Jacob is right. I hope so! I can't wait to not hear people say "he's not your husband yet" when i refer to him as my husband.
... Now for bad news... My weight has gone up 3 pounds in the past 2 days... I half blame that on the fact that i've just been eating as hunger tells me to and not as Ana tells me to, and i half blame it on the fact that i've been taking pain killers for the aches that have stuck with me after the accident. (Pain killers are notorious for causing constipation... which is exactly what they're doing to me right now. Why?! There's no happy medium! I'm either unable to stop pooping or unable to poop. ...Sorry for that too much info.)
Anyways, i hope you all are doing well. I really do love you so very very much. Stay strong, my dears. We'll all be beautiful somehow, someday.