Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Progress and Love

"I'm hungry," i whispered.
"Shut up and just go to sleep," Ana shot back. "Hunger is a good thing."
Jacob looked up from the cards in his hand. "What'd you say, baby?"
I shook my head and put down one of the cards from my hand. "Nothing. I'm just getting sleepy. I think i wanna go to bed after this game."
"OK. You can do that. I think i'll stay up for a while and play a video game or something though," he replied.
"Good girl," Ana said, patting me on the back. She pointed to one of the cards i held. "This one will win you the game."
I smiled at her. "Thanks," i said.
She wrapped her arms around me. "Any time, sweetie. Especially since you've been doing so well with listening to me. I mean, sure, you're eating a bit more than i'd like, but none of it is bad food anymore. All fruits and veggies and a tad bit of chicken from time to time. You've even lost 3 pounds in 2 days, and you have finally found that adamant resolve to exercise every day and let nothing get in the way. I'm proud of you. I'm even happy with Jacob for helping you out with it a bit. He could do more of that helping... but i know that even the tiny bit he has done is more than anyone could ever expect."
I leaned into her embrace and played the card she'd showed me.
Jacob groaned and made a face in response to my card.
I giggled. "Sorry, love, but i gotta do my best to win."
He faked an angry scowl. "You'd best be planning to make it up to me somehow!"
"Will this do?" i asked, and circled my arms around his neck to kiss him.
He responded to my kiss and said, "Maybe if you give me about a million more of those."
I smiled. "I believe i can do that."
He returned the smile. "I love you so much."
"And i love you so much," i replied.
Ana's arms went around the both of us. "And somehow, i love you both."


  1. i cant explain how much i love reading ur posts

  2. Your posts are pure passion.
    I can feel Ana's hand gripped so tightly around your wrist.

    Your words are like honey.
    Smooth and perfect.

  3. *agrees with wannabskinny*
    youre amazing. you should print off all these blogs and publish them. i would definitely buy it and read it over and over.
    stay strong <3

  4. I love your blog!!! I usually just read your blog because after wards I feel to inadeqit to comment! Congrats on the loss your doing so great! And it's great to hear how happy you and jacob are!
    stAy stroNg! thiN(k) thiN!
    xoxo lyndee

  5. See, you always return with a vengance! Grr! Go you!! (Er, that was me trying to be like a pep-talk coach.)

    I've always said, if they want to make me eat, I'll eat vegetable all damn day if they want, but they can't make me eat anything else.

  6. omg ur so helpful i read ur post wen i feel alone and know ur going thru what i am