My breath came in short gasps as my feet pounded against the pavement. A car drove past me, blowing a nice breeze of cool air into my red face. The music from my iPod filled my ears as pain filled my legs. "I hate this!" i said between heavy breaths. "I'm going to get shin splints, and i know i've got blisters."
Ana rolled her eyes from her position beside me. "Weakling," she muttered. "How are you so out of breath so easily? It's not that hard to run."
I shook my head and slowed down to a walk. "My lung collapsed in that car accident, remember? It is hard to keep my breath, and running is something i've always hated."
"Would you just shut up? I'm so sick of your constant whining and weakness. We've only been out here for 15 minutes. Come on!" She got behind me and gave me a push. "Run!"
I reluctantly obeyed. Running was not fun, no matter how much i told myself it was. I hated it, no matter how much i told myself i loved it. I didn't want to do it, no matter how much i told myself i did... but it was really the only weight-loss related thing i could do. I didn't have my weights, stability ball, or resistance band to do strength training exercises, and walking certainly didn't count as an exercise, so i had to run. It wasn't a choice. Even my own mind sided with Ana in this area.
A gypsy moth caterpillar crept its way across the road in front of me, and i grimaced but kept running. (Caterpillars were my worst fear.) When i saw the second caterpillar, i was prepared to turn back toward home, but Ana stopped me with these words, "Which are you more afraid of, caterpillars or that fat on your torso?"
I shivered and carefully thought it over. Both were terrifying to me, but finally i answered her. "Fat," i said.
"Then keep running, and don't start your stupid crying just because of these hairy little worms."
I nodded, blinked back the tears and pressed on for another hour and a half.
**Thank you all so very much for you lovely comments on my last post. I was feeling so down, but ya'll made me smile so much. I love you!**