Friday, July 9, 2010


I closed my eyes and stepped onto the scale. "Do i dare look at the number?" i asked Ana.
"It's still a little bit high in my opinion," she replied, "but look for yourself."
I shook my head. "I can't. I'm too scared."
"Oh, you great moron!" she said, rolling her eyes and throwing up her hands. "It's down from what it was yesterday. Stop being so pathetic. Look at it! It's progress."
I opened one eye and looked at Ana. "It's down?"
She nodded. "I was just saying that there's still room for more progress."
I looked down at the scale and choked back an excited little giggle. 122.0 the digital numbers said. Close to two weeks ago, those numbers had said 129.5. I clapped my hands together and let the giggle escape. "It's beautiful!" i said.
She shook her head. "Not yet." Then her face softened a bit, "But you are well on your way to making it beautiful." She threw my work pants to me. "Get dressed or you'll be late."
I nodded and went back to the bedroom where Jacob was still lying in bed to put the pants on. I easily slid the pants over my hips and buttoned them without even sucking my stomach in. Once again, i got excited. Those pants had been far too tight a couple weeks ago when Jacob had bought them for me. "Jacob!" i shrieked. "Look at this!" I pulled at the waistline of the buttoned pants. They stood an inch and a half away from my waist. "They're getting too big!"
He half-smiled, happy to see me so happy. "That's it, girl. You're eating breakfast," he teased me.
I continued smiling and shrugged my shoulders. "Nah, i'll eat when i get home from work like you always make me." I didn't want to eat breakfast, for fear that i'd still want to eat when i came home, thus eating more than once that day and killing the progress.
"And it won't be very much either," Ana said.
I nodded to her, and Jacob nodded to me. All was going quite well.


  1. Your writing is so powerful. So powerful and it's crazy how real it is too. Stay strong and healthy. You know that even tho ana might be your best friend right now honestly girl honestly shes your worst enemy and will only TEAR your life APART. tear it in ways you never thought were possible. im sure you are beautiful. i really enjoying reading your blog. <3

  2. Aw, I'm so glad that things are going well for you! You really deserve it (: And congrats on making 122!

  3. Congrats on the loss & the pants!

  4. Awesome!
    I'm very happy for you.

  5. Hey 122 is great!! I mean the weight loss. 7,5 pounds isn't bad! I'm proud of you, keep going! I think I'll stick to eating once a day aswell, I bet this will work out. At least it did for you. Be happy!

  6. Congrads!! thats an awesome feat. im glad to see your gettin closer to your goal. and tell jacob no more mean jokes ;)

    and thx muchos for the abc info! i was at a loss lol

    mad zaq

  7. It must me so wonderful so share those moments with one you love... Keep on writing my dear! Your the best blogger I've ever seen.

  8. Great job on your progress hun! That's awesome! You're writing is really beautiful by the way- I can almost see everything happening while I'm reading...keep up the awesome work <3

  9. omg!! what the hell are u doing to lose all that weight! let me in on ur secret lol

  10. Congrats girlie!
    Keep up the good work

  11. Progress is amazing, such a great motivator. Seeing it on the scale is awesome, but when tight pants change to loose pants -- that is priceless =)

  12. Seven and a half pounds, that is a huge amount to lose. :) At least, by average aka 'healthy' standards. But then again, the 'healthy' weight to lose is 2 lbs per week at most--I got an app for weight loss and it told me I could reach my goal weight by April by losing 2 lbs a week, as that is the maximum possible. Yet it's so easy for someone with odd eating habits to lose so much more.... So I'm just keeping the app for calorie counting.

    Anyway, I think you are doing so well. I'm happy for you and you seem happy frequently, and you're still making progress by losing weight. :) You give me a lot of hope. Write again soon!

  13. 122, welldone babes! keep it up, you're doing great. you're my inspiration. i so badly want to get into the 20s.