Sunday, April 10, 2011

Sometimes....

It feels like i'm not getting anywhere in my life. Look at me: i'm nothing, nobody, getting nowhere. Just you're typical white trash that ran away from home and got knocked up before she could afford it. I don't have my own home; i can barely pay what bills we do have; certainly can't afford food on a regular basis (good in Ana's eyes, but what about my family?!). But it's not like i don't work. I work my ass off all the time. My job just doesn't pay me shit for my trouble. I don't know... sometimes it feels pointless to even try to make it somewhere.

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  1. You have to find your niche. Educate yourself into something specific. Be the best at something and then you'll succeed and become successful :)

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  2. Sometimes we find ourselves in situations that are less-than-desirable. But what else can we do but keep going? We're bound to get somewhere sooner or later.

    You are strong. You can do it. *hugs*

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  3. You'll make it through somehow. Just keep thinking about the baby as motivation.

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  4. The only way you can go is forward :) So keep on fighting. Take a class in something, look for other jobs and receive every help you can get. And you're not nothing! You're an awesome and inspiring girl that got a load of opportunities ahead of her :)

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  5. Jo, you are going everywhere. You definitely have a lot to offer the world, so don't feel bad when it's not working out like now--remember that you have a family and love, and opportunities always come up when you least expect them. :)

    Try making a list of everything in life that makes you happy. Don't write it all at once, just write down one thing that makes to smile today. Then tomorrow there might be two things to add, and the next day three. Some days you might have nothing at all to add, but that's why you should write everything down: then you have a Happy List to make you feel better!

    I know that's a cheesy suggestion but please do try it--when you have a bad day, awful week, or when pregnancy symptoms kick in (I hope you won't get morning sickness! but just in case...) it really helps to remember nice things, like that rainy day where you made it to the bus in time or anything as simple as that. I hope you'll feel better soon Jo!

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  6. You know what they say: success comes to those who are neither afraid to fail nor discouraged by failures. It's not easy to go from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm but if you don't try then you won't make it anywhere. So don't give up! Believe in yourself! And you'll make it.

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  7. We've all had that feeling. I'm a twenty year old single, college drop-out, unemployed and living in my parents basement. You have husband who loves you and a beautiful bundle of joy on the way. You just have to keep your chin up and continue to work hard and things will work out. They always do. I promise.

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  8. Woe is you. You've got some fucking nerve. EVERYONE has issues. Your problems are just few of many. And completely fucking minuscule to those of others. Count your blessings you delusional self-centered bitch. God, just when I think there's no other possible way you could disgust me, you prove me wrong.

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  9. You're trying, and that counts. I like what the above poster said, if you can educate yourself in something specific do it.

    Don't give up. My best friend had a kid at 19. Her bf dumped her and she was on her own. 10 years later she's accomplished so much more than most of our friends that have $$$$ coming out of their asses and have gotten everything handed to them. She just kept trying to do the best she could, sometimes working 3 jobs to get by. She really worked hard and made something of herself.

    the key is to keep trying... and believe in yourself.

    ~ H

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  10. We've all felt this way. Try to focus on what you do have, like your lovely husband and a wonderful new baby on the way :) Everything happens for a reason. It may not feel like it now, but everything that is happening now is for the best in the future. Try to stay positive, even though I know it's hard.

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  11. You're gonna be a Mum! Thats a full-time job in itself! Raising an awesome human being is something to be proud of.

    Find your passion and follow it. It's unique and awesome, just like you. Who knows where it will take you. . .

    LOVE YOOOOOOOOOOOU!

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  12. your young, just starting out. some day you will have the house and family you've dreamed of. just keep in mind those people with their mansons and ferraris started somewhere too. <3

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  13. What about your parents? Maybe they could support you when the baby arrives.

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  14. You may not have all those things now (you're own home, a great-paying job, etc.) but you will have them some day soon1 Normally folks have to work a long time to achieve those things, so don't be so hard on yourself that you don't have them right away becasue you're getting there! You ARE going somewhere- it just takes a little bit of time. You are not white trash- you're a hard working mother-to-be who's trying to create a great life for you and your family. Once your child grows up a bit, maybe you can see about going back to school and working on your degree? Maybe by then you have a pretty good idea what your would like your career to be! :)

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  15. You don't have nothing. You have a man that loves you. As someone going through a break-up as of yesterday that is the one thing in the world I wish I had. Despite your lack of money, your shit job and everything else you just mentioned, you get to see the man you love everyday, which makes me envy you so much. Oh shit, now I'm crying on the train.

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  16. Wow Danni really needs to pop a xanax and feck off.

    Just because your problems aren't something like living in poverty in the third world doesn't mean they're not still problems. We've all got our own issues big and small, but that fact doesn't make your problems any less upsetting.

    You're definitely going somewhere. You're going to be a mummy soon--that's huge! The job/money situation will get better, it's just so hard to find decent work now. Took me more than two years to find a job after college, and I still feel like I'm not going anywhere. Sometimes I think we just have to wander, and we'll find something good by accident. <3

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