This blog is a story about me and my dear friend Ana (aka. anorexia). It's partly fiction, but almost completely true. And it's definately Pro Ana.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
I wasn't gone for too long, was i?
Thank you for all your lovely comments on everything. You all are darlings. Oh, and, Danni, i'm not hating on you, but you've definitely got some of my followers hating on you since i posted your comments; go ahead and read some of their comments about you and your comments if you're strong enough (or think you are anyway). Guess what! I went to the doctor two days ago and i heard the baby's heartbeat! Jesse was in the room with me and he got the biggest smile on his face as soon as we heard it. I'm sure my smile was just as big, but his was just absolutely lovely to me. My goodness, i have a living being inside me!!! I really did want to break the doctor's finger off though. Like, seriously, why the hell is it necessary to ram your finger up my vagina to try to feel...i don't even know what he was trying to feel! Anyone know? Please do tell me. Also, tell me how to deal with that, because for some reason it's really really apalling and bothersome to me. Anyway.... Sorry i didn't post for the past couple days. I've been working my ass off. I don't think i got 8 hours of sleep in the past 3 days combined (ok, slight exaggeration, but only slight). Not good for the baby, i know, but there's really no way of fixing it; i think whoever does the schedule at work is trying their damndest to kill me. Seriously, close the store (which means get home around 2 am) and then get up at 8 am to be at a 9 am manager meeting the next morning, close again that night, and then get up at 5 am to take my serve-safe test, which i get back from around 8 pm! HOLY HELL! I'm so tired it's ridiculous. I think i passed the test though. But last night it was impossible for me to sleep for some reason. All i wanted to do was lie in bed and cry my eyes out, which is exactly what i did. The crazy thing is, i have no clue what i was crying about, and it was some rather hysterical crying. Jesse got less sleep than me the two nights before that, so he was too tired to even wake up when i started my stupid sobbing, which i actually think is a good thing considering i had no reason to tell him. But it's whatever, i made it through work today somehow, and now i'm back to catch up on what's new with you all. So i'm going to quit my random rambles and go read up on all your lovely blogs. Love yous!!
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A heartbeat! How beautiful! Just wait till you see the ultra-sounds. You are gonna cry. In the good way.
ReplyDeleteIs it possible to ask your work to ease up a bit because you're pregnant. I think it is legitimate to ask them to reschedule things somewhat so that if you do have to work hard days it's not back to back.
I think crying for no reason just comes with the experience. Hormones and all that.
Keep on being Beautiful!
awe its all those hormones. when one of my friends was pregnant we were watching a movie that really wasnt all that sad and im quite emotional i might add, and she just starts hysterically crying like shes been devastated or something, and about ten minutes of crying she was like "why am i crying?!" and starts crying harder. we laugh about it now though lol.
ReplyDeleteOoooh, Imma go back and read the drama later!
ReplyDeleteSQUEE! HEARTBEAT! :D
Hello dear Ana's Girl,
ReplyDeleteFeels like I haven't written in so long and I'm so sorry.
Firstly congrats on the wedding AND the baby, you will be absolutely bursting with pride when its born I know because any child of yours will be adorably beautiful!
To update you, Alex left me a while back now - basically I starved myself for a week before we went on a weekend holiday and then on the holiday I completely broke down and he saw what I was really like behind the fake happy smile. He was a coward and he ran and left me to be completely comsumed by the evil...
Anyway, after having hit the absolute bottome, I'm now fighting fit again (albeit with far more restriction that my therapist would like...) but fact is being thin and exercising makes me happier than eating three meals a day.
Thanks as always for your kind words and support, I'm sending you lots of love across the ocean and thinking of you and the baby :) Look after yourself!
Ophelia xxx
Wow, congratulations from the bottom of my heart! That is so beautiful <3
ReplyDeleteI've nominated you for the Versatile Blogger award. Check my blog for details :]
I must be so fucking special! :D I got a little shout out from the piggish thing, itself. I don't care for your pathetic iPals, sweetness. In fact, this is the only instance in which I'd ever even care to acknowledge them. Their empty words I could care less for. I'm sure you could believe I've been called much worse to my face. Anywho,it'd serve well if you'd quit posting about your pathetic life (and your vile genitals. YIKES!) and get back to "ana" matters. Whats your CW, for God's sake? 131, is total and utter bullshit. 140-ish looks more like it from those post-punk, red-neck wedding photos. x_x
ReplyDeleteThose hormones are fun, right? When one of my friends was pregnant, she got some serious rage-management problems. It was kind of funny and scary at the same time...
ReplyDeleteI don't think it's possible to have a comfortable experience with your gynecologist.
Hope you get some rest! You and baby deserve it.
xoxoxo
WOW I've been gone from your blog for a really long time. too long. SO much has happened in your life! Now I'm going to have to read all the time I've missed in here to catch up!
ReplyDeleteThank you <3 I'm slowly healing. I should be able to go back to the gym next week if I keep drinking tea and staying warm ^.^
ReplyDeleteLol, how have you been handling the pregnancy-related blarghness? XD I'm picturing all sorts of high-handed dictatorial antics being put down to hormones and morning sickness! :p
Have a good weekend. Safe gestating! <3
congrats on everything!!! and the reason for the dr jamming his fingers in there was to check your cervix, trust me, it doesn't get any better, just more uncomfortable....hope everything goes well!
ReplyDeleteHey pretty momma,
ReplyDeleteI am afraid to say that all privacy is lost during pregnancy and childbirth but do not worry it is all so worth it. I have a son and he is the best thing that ever happened to me. Vitamin E is good to help prevent stretchmarks. Also I read in an earlier post that you eat chicken and seafood I just want to say be careful those foods should be avoided while pregnant. Vitamin A can be dangerous and do not forget folate. My blog is josiebones.blogspot.com or you can email me boneswillshow@gmail.com if you have any questions, worries etc about pregnancy I used to consume pregnancy books for info when I was and still remember a great deal of it. Take care of you and baby :)
Love Josie