Thursday, May 12, 2011

There are Thorns on Every Rose, in This I'm Reconciled. They're Just a Little Sharper to a Melancholy Child

So more on that job thing that i REALLY don't feel like talking about... A group of us were goofing off one night and some dumbass thought it'd be awesome to take pix and post them on facebook. Good job, good job. The store owner somehow found them and fired all 7 of us right on the spot BUT he called us all in for a meeting just to tell us we were fired rather than being semi-decent about it and just telling us over the phone. Thanks for wasting gas money we definitely don't have now, asshole!
So jesse and i are both jobless, and of course that means we can't afford to get that appartment--or any for that matter.. We can't even afford to pay the rent to live at the shithole we were living at before. Thank god for ryan and his mom. They're letting us live with them for free because otherwise we'd be living out of the car. Their couch is just so uncomfy it's ridiculous, but i guess i really shouldn't be bitching. At least i've got a place to live, right?
I'm just so afraid i'm not going to be able to get a job because i am pregnant and lots of people won't hire you if they know you're pregnant... And then i'm afraid that we won't be able to afford our own place and i'll be raising my child out of people's living rooms. If that's the case, i'd have to consider adoption or something, and i DON"T want to do that... Grr.
Therefore i have hit a depression and have been sitting around sulking and crying for the past 3 days. Jesse says that makes him feel awful, but how the fuck am i supposed to help that?! So yeah. That's what's up with my life. Ain't it lovely?


  1. Hey, I'm new to the whole blogging thing...I've read your blog from beginning to end, and now that I've caught up, I eagerly await your next post. I really hope things start looking up for you and your family. I'm in my early teens, so not much advice on the "being pregnant thing." Congrats though! I know this post probably wasn't the most helpful, but i hoped it lifted your spirits some...and no, I'm not an optimist...

  2. Pretty girl, do not loose your hope. I belive in you - you got that thing, it's called the fighter-syndrome.

    - Best whishes Katherine 16, Denmark.

  3. D: What kind of RETARDS did you work with?!? People here have been fired for the slightest maligning of their employer on FaceBook. (My friend "Otis" works for a company that contracts to the Government. He posted as being opposed to the anti-filsharing-law, and joined a FB group opposed to it. He was investigated as a terrorist and nearly lost his job)

    Is there any financial aid you guys can get? Seriously, whore that aid for what you can to get back on your feet! I'm sure you can get the Dependent Person's Benefit or suchlike after the baby is born. Grrr I know, people don't hire pregnant chicks coz they then have to give them maternity leave! D:(

    *Cuddles* Things will work out! Get the sads out (Fucking hormones! :p) and then face this fight with all the "GRRRR!" you have. You can do this!

    Oooooh, the Milton Wool Trip is coming up on Tuesday. *Rubs hands together* Do you know what flavour of bebbeh you're going to have yet, or should I go with gender-neutral colours?

    LOVE YOU SOSOSOSOSOOOO MUCH! Lots of hugs and love to you and Jesse and the tiny thing. <3

  4. I really hope everything works out. Have you tried temping? I used to work for a temp agency, and while you couldn't really be guaranteed to get work all the time, they were pretty good about sending me on jobs, and the pay was really good.
    Keeping you in my thoughts, and sending good new-job vibes your way! <3

  5. Hey,
    I'm sorry, that really stinks. If you lived here I would give you my job. My parents suport me and I dont need the money.
    You can hope you will find another job, there are kind people in the world who will undersatnd how bad you need the money and will help you. However your child is raise, as long as you give her your love and affection and attention then she will love you. My parents haven't been able to give me all I need but they do they're best and I admire that. You'll make it through the tough times. Keep up hope darling. -katie.

  6. Hey
    Sorry to hear about your job. Hope you're doing ok.

    Em xox

    p.s thanks for your blog, I love it :)