My heart raced and my stomach lurched. The stomach lurching was no longer out of the ordindary morning routine for me, but the heart pounding was new, frightening, and somehow exciting. I reached for the pregnacy test, afraid to see the results. What if it was posative? What the hell would Ana do? Or what if it was negative? What the hell would Jacob do? Either way, what the hell would i do? I took a deep breath and looked at the result box. A plain little plus sign was so simple for me to see that it was ridiculous. I smiled, a terrified little smile and rushed downstairs to the bedroom to show Jacob the results. He smiled such a huge, ridiculous smile when he looked at it that i couldn't help feeling excited too. "I'm gonna have a baby!" he giggled like an excited little girl.
I laughed at him and nodded. "Yes... we are." He swept me into his arms and hugged and kissed me intensely.
Ana tapped my shoulder. "May i take part in all of this joy?"
I pushed her away. "No! You will have nothing to do with my child. EVER."
A hurt look crossed her beautiful bony face. "Why not?" she asked, sounding surprisingly innocent.
I shook my head as anger rose inside my chest. "You make my life hell as it is. You will not do that while i have a child that i need to eat for as well as myself. And you most definitely will not meet my child when he or she is old enough to understand all your stupid little tricks and hateful remarks. You will not make my child go through the same hell that you make me go through. Go take a damn vacation, and get out of my life..." I paused, afraid of what i'd just said. "But... please, don't leave me altogether. I promise i'll follow your advice again once the baby comes. I... i love you.. and i need you..."
She sighed. "I know. It's understandable for you to be overly protective," she said with a shrug. "I'll be back one the baby is born... May i at least hold it for a moment right after it's born?"
I shook my head almost sadly. "No. I don't want to hurt you, but more importantly, i don't want you hurting my baby."
She nodded. "Ok. I won't forget you, Jo. I'll come back."
"Promise?" i called after her retreating figure.
"I promise," she said, and turned around with a sad smile and wave. "I'll be back."
**I'm open for any advice on this pregnacy thing AT ALL. I know absolutely nothing, and i'm terrified and excited both at the same time. Anyone who has any advice, regardless of what it is, please leave me a comment.
...Does anyone know how to avoid stretch marks, and a bunch of baby weight after the birth? Those are the two things that scare me the most, as dumb as that might sound.**