"Time for a new start," Ana whispered in my ear.
I shoved her away. "Buzz off and let me enjoy this New Year party."
She shook her head violently. "Oh, no you don't. You made me a promise that once the new year got here, you were gonna come back to eating my way." She pointed to the clock. "It's 12:45. Complete new year. No more fucking things up."
I sighed. "You're killing my alcohol buzz."
She nodded. "Yeah, well, you gotta get your shit together. Maybe once your'e skinny and beautiful, your luck won't be so bad all the time."
"Come on! The stuff that happens to me has nothing to do with my weight."
"Oh no?" she said, sceptically raising her eyebrows. "You think i can't bring bad things your way when you ignore me? Think again, love!"
The buzz was gone. "Fine, maybe you do, but... i don't know how i'm going to handle food in your manner with Jacob always by my side."
"Don't make excuses. You know he said he'd be fine with you eating a salad with no meat on it 5 days of the week. You really ought to go with that, and on the other two days eat a bit of grilled chicken and veggies to make him happy. Or, even better, skip out on eating any day any way that you can without lying to him, little miss 'i must tell the truth'. You'll do fine if you just start trying."
I nodded. "Ok. I'll try," i ceded.
"Good," she replied triumpantly as she gave me a hug. "I love you!"
"I love you too, despite how annoying you can be sometimes."
She giggled. "Annoyance is a virtue sometimes."
"Perhaps it is in your mind..." but i really could see her point.
*I've done really well sticking with that plan! I managed to skip eating two days since the year began, and on the other days, the calorie count has been either 500 or below that. I feel skinnier and stronger (and hungrier! which really makes me happy) every day. I'll be truly thin someday soon, my loves. I really will! I know i can.*