Saturday, March 6, 2010

Been Gone A While...

So much has happened in the past week. My parents and pastor found my blog, tried to send me to therapy, and tell me i couldn't see Jacob anymore... so i moved out. I sneaked out the back window on Sunday night, and now i'm living with my FIANCE! :) That's right; we're engaged now! It's incredible. I do feel a little bit bad about how it makes my parents feel, but you know, they sorta asked for it.
Ana's still with me... but she's much more forgiving, and really very quiet in general. Jacob has calmed her down a good bit. Lol. We just shared an enormous stromboli, and Ana didn't even yell... too much.
I miss you all sooooo much. I love reading your blogs and getting your comments but i don't know how much i really have time for it. (Oh dear, that sounds horrid, i know.) Don't worry, i don't love any of you any less; i'm just swamped for time...
This might be my last post, or i might be coming back every once in a while to update you--of course i'll HAVE to post wedding pictures! :)
Ummmm.... yeah... i miss you all, and i'll try to keep in touch. *hugs!*
I'm the happiest i've ever been though. I only wish that each of you can find the kind of love that i've found. My heart just might explode with all this happiness and love, but i'm ok with it.


  1. I'm really glad you're happy dear, but slow down maybe? I don't want you to get hurt. It's so great that you and Jacob love each other, but don't get married too early until you're absolutely positive you want to spend the rest of your life with him. It's good Ana's giving you a break, good luck with everything while you're away from blogging! :]

  2. OH MY ANA, that's AWESOME!!! :D :D :D

    Holy shit, girl, you have no idea how happy this post made me. Every last bit of it. I mean, not about your parents and all, but like you said...They asked for it. My mom presented me with an ultimatum when I was 17, telling me I could never date my boyfriend of the time while living under her roof. I moved out the next day. yeah. Love. It'll make you do crazy (sometimes amazing) shit.

    I am so ridiculously happy for you both. I can't wait to see wedding pictures. I hope this happiness continues to follow you throughout your lives together, and that you are met with nothing but loveliness and peace during your journey through this world...

    Oh, and because I'm curious...dunno if you'll have time to answer this, but I'm always wondering when people say "My so-and-so found my blog..." How did that happen? How do they just find it? Do they find it by accident, or on your computer whilst snooping, or from a friend of a friend or...what? Just wanting to know so that maybe I can try to avoid that at all costs... Anyway, love you! stay absolutely lovely, dear.


  3. sorry dont think ive commented much befor ebut ive been following for a while


    on the engagement and most of all happiness


  4. Omg! Omg! Such a dramatic change! But good for you. Congratulations. As long as you're happy, I'm happy. Do whatever you have to to maintain that happiness, hon. Love you lots! <3

  5. You seem to be entering a much more positive stage of your life, and I'm happy for you. : ) I'm happy that you're in love and that you're happy. : )

  6. Best wishes! I hope you guys make it work, and I cant wait to see wedding pictures and you in your fabulous dress.

    I hope your life will be awesome :)

  7. Well, wherever your path takes you, I wish you luck, and wish you the very best.

  8. Wow. I wish you happiness, but this is a big decision and you seem pretty naive. I mean, you don't know Jacob that well at all and - to be fair - your parents were right to be concerned after reading this blog...

    Yea, I just can't believe you moved in with and GOT ENGAGED TO a guy you've barely started dating - just months ago you were SO IN LOVE with shaun. Think about this. Be rational.

  9. This made me nearly cry! I am so happy for you.I wish you so much luck for you and your fiance!!

  10. I'm going to miss you!!!!!! *cries* *thinking 'be a big girl, be a big girl!'* awww i'm going to miss you hun! But i can't even express how happy i am for you. I hope you have an amazing life with Jacob. Please try to post now and again, fill us in. Anyway, you are happy and loved, that's what really matters.
    ~Riki Ana xoxox

  11. Wow, I'm so happy for you. :) Well not that your parents and pastor found your blog, but because you're happy and engaged. I hope you keep feeling like this. I hope you keep posting though, I love reading your blog.

  12. Oh wow, congratulations! I'm so happy for you, I'm tearing up! You deserve more than anybody to be loved for who you are, and I wish you much joy with Jacob. He sounds like a really great guy: he's looking out for you, but he doesn't want you to be someone you're not.

    Love you! Stay strong! You're a beautiful person!

  13. *jumps up and down* omg im so thrilled and happy you're back ! :)
    we all were quite worried all this long time when you were away .
    hope you have the best life with your beautiful man :)
    [and ofc with Ana, but don't let her take the control . Only you can control food and your life. ]

    Don't forget us ! ;)

  14. Can I be superhappy for you and heartbroken at the same time? Because that's how I feel. All the best of luck for the future :) xxx

  15. Wow, a big move. I'm so happy for you. Hope we do get to see wedding pics. Hope he's your "The One" But I've always believed that there is more than one person for each of us. <3 Good luck. Hope every thing works out with your parents. Your pastor? Hmmm... that sounds awkword. Oh well. Good luck darlin.

  16. wow the whole therapy thing really sucks, especially with your parents and you having to move out. However it is truly incredible that you have found love, that's so exciting.... I don't know how much I like the idea of you not posting, you are one of my biggest inspirations.... good luck, stay strong.

  17. I've never commented but I read your blog all the time and I just wanted to say congratulations! You deserve it! I know you have helped me a lot with your posts and I know so many people feel the same.
    Good luck!

  18. Good luck! If you ever need anything, or someone to talk to, send me an email.

  19. congratulations babe. :)
    hope to hear from you soon. xxx

  20. awe i am soo happy for u!! i dont want u to lve:(

  21. Hey :) I recently started reading your blogs, and I love them! I've literally read all of them in the space of about 2 days.
    I can absolutely relate to everything you say, I have a very similar ED to you.
    I just wanted to say your progress is amazing, well done :)
    And congratulations on you and Jacob! I wish you all the luck for the future, hope to hear from you again!

  22. Nooo im so sad i could almost cry :'( ive never been in this situation before.. what do you do when your Ana idol leaves for good ?! well i guess the good ones come and go but i reallly will miss you and please do come back :) Awh theres so much i wanna say. I wanna thank you for being such an inspiration to me and I definitely wont forget you anytime soon. And use the remembrance of you to guide me to succeed. Never forget about us ! And good luck with your husband in the future. xoxo
    Love Olivia <3

  23. I hope things work out! Update us when you can

    you've been such a strength to us all

  24. Oh wow! I'm so happy for you! Can't wait to see the wedding pictures.
    I wish you two the best of luck.
    Take care <3

  25. Oh. My heart is breaking--I'm happy for you, so so much! And sad for us. I'll miss you tremendously. :( Jacob seems absolutely perfect; I hope he's more than everything you have always looked for. You must post pics!!!

    I hope you start your new life with a lot of happy, and don't forget us too soon! <3

    always be strong,
    someone who's not usually an anonymous poster :)